Thursday, June 9, 2016

Zero

Two major events happened last week.

First, I finally hit the zero point on my net worth.  After two years of budgeting and frugal(ish) living, I finally dug myself out of the hole that medical training and lots of careless spending created.  I feel a little bit lighter and a little bit less stressed, but it hasn't been quite as momentous an achievement as I had hoped.  Now that I am officially worthless (ha ha), I want to actually start accumulating some money.  An emergency fund!  A down payment on a home!  Apparently I'm incapable of being satisfied with where I am in life.

Second...I broke up with my girlfriend of two years.

It's hard to know what to say about this, because there are so many things at play in a breakup, and they never quite fit together into a coherent story.  It's inevitably messy.  I can say that it was my decision, that I had a sense it was coming for a while, that I'm doing okay.  That it is very strange to watch carloads of her things disappear from my small apartment and to see my old life emerging from underneath them.  That the worst thing in the world is hurting someone you love.  There is so much more.

For now, one of the many songs that I'm listening to, over and over again.

15 comments:

  1. Hang in there. Congratulations on the major financial achievement, and hopefully the rest will become less painful with time. Never easy to break up a long term relationship even if you are the one who did the breaking up *speaks from personal experience.*

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    1. Thanks. And indeed! I feel like way more attention is always paid to the person who gets left, but the one who does the leaving also goes through their own unique struggle.

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  2. I'm so sorry about your girlfriend! *hugs*

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  3. Oh jeez. I was all going Woooooo! But then the girlfriend part. That's so hard. :(

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  4. I'm sorry to hear about you & the GF! I imagine you both have to be hurting terribly! You've spent a long time together & it will take some time for both of you! Be kind to yourself! We're here for you! Jodi

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  5. Oh SD, I'm so sorry :( Have loved your following your path.

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  6. Ah, my heart sinks! But also I hope that ultimately it is the right thing, and a good thing, for you. And I offer major congratulations on your new net worth of nothing!

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  7. Oy, sorry to hear about the break up. Glad to hear you are ok - hope you can take good care of yourself through these tough times.
    And congratulations on the net worth! That's fantastic and such an accomplishment!

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  8. Sorry to hear about the breakup. Hugs.

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  9. that's great about getting a handle on your debt. I am sorry about your breakup and you are right- the worst part is hurting someone you still love. Going through it myself :(

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    1. Oh no! That is terrible news! Sending huge hugs from up in Canada.

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  10. I'm so sorry to hear about your breakup. *hugs* :(

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  11. Yay - out of debt! Boo - relationship break up. Keep your chin up (is that even a saying in Canada?!)

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  12. I am glad to hear that you're out of debt - that's a huge accomplishment and one that you should be proud of. I'm certainly proud for you.

    Breaking up with someone you love is hard. I wish you (and The [ex]Girlfriend) sympathy and thoughts, and best wishes for moving on. And I'm glad that you've had a hugely positive moment in life to balance out this sad one.

    If you ever need a random internet stranger to vent to, I'll be around!

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  13. Let's start with the happy: wow congratulations on starting at zero - you've accomplished what some doctors put off for decades because they finally have the disposable income. That takes some serious sacrifice on your part and I'm very envious :).

    And the breakup - I hope your heart heals fast. Sounds kind you are on tbe path for a new adventure in a debt-free life and maybe that will help in enjoying all the little things in life that you had to give up.

    Congrats again!

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